Like Blood From a Broken Nose

Things Im hoping to do to my room

2009-06-11T10:49:00.000-07:00

repaint,white and burgundy

install new flooring cause my carpet is way yucky

re-upholster my couches by stapling fabric to them

organize all the stuff hidden in my desk

get rid of my desk

get something more resembling an art desk so I can have more space to sew and what not

wash the cushion that goes on my cot chair,

laminate and put up all my postcards

make a cute fabric covered cork board

add a couple more levels to my homemade book shelve, no more than two though cause it'll my non working fan may crash into it

get a new cat box, one that scoops the poop to one side cause my cat likes to throw it out onto the floor which is why my carpet is yucky

organize all my creature making stuff--ooooooo buttons :D

organize my books

do something useful with my tv stand

possibly get rid of tv and add a plant?

make curtains cause my stick shades don't cut it

replace my ceiling fan because it doesn't work, it hasn't for about 2 years and my room has no ac >.<

get one of these for my room when i dont want to sit but i want to so stuff on muh mac

i would like to get a better bed frame, maybe one i could raise up to put shelving/cupboards underneath for extra bedding, my cat would hate this...

i would also like to find wall paper mural, i want one of a black and white forest, haven't found one though

i think thats all, too bad i have to save all my money to pay for school next year, the only one of these that will probably get done is organization stuff and even then not really :\

It Was Good While It Lasted

2009-05-20T23:18:00.001-07:00

...

I had this dream

2009-01-24T13:52:00.000-08:00

that i quit the internet and had to rely on real life people for entertainment, it sucked. Im so glad it was just a dream.

Arts and Crafts Time

2008-12-05T14:59:00.001-08:00

OMG

2008-12-04T12:00:00.001-08:00

Please experience This

I want

2008-11-16T23:32:00.000-08:00

to make crazy random videos and i feel i will probably make an over load of them once school is out and i have a external hard drive yes yea i will prepare yourself please

I feel weird...

2008-11-03T19:31:00.003-08:00

I should be doing my homework, writing a paper, and making videos not bummin on the couch.

Kitten kitten

2008-10-21T14:22:00.001-07:00

Wow...

2008-10-15T15:47:00.000-07:00

I want to have sex in a library, or libraries that look like this.

I <3 Eat.Sleep.Draw

2008-09-29T19:49:00.000-07:00

I wish I could find my crayons and sketch book.

They've gone missing...

I think Sara might have gotten to them...

Yes, must torture Sara into sharing their hidden location.

Oh yeah, I'm not sure who all reads this but if you read this I want to send you a postcard.

<3

Tina

Why must you play these silly mind games Blogger...

2008-09-18T09:30:00.001-07:00

Okay so I'm doing my morning routine, checking out the blogs that I enjoy reading. And I'm reading LemonFacee's Blog. And then I'm like Ooooh comment time. This is my favorite part of course. So I click to add a comment, and type my comment in the box provided and I scroll down to put in the word verification puzzle thing from hell right? Wrong, well still right, but different. This is what blogger throws at me.

I'm completely stunned, I have no idea what this is. This must be some cruel joke. But i must do what the internet says, and the internet says I must type the words above in the box.

What do I get after correctly entering what appeared on my screen?! This:

You're a jerk Blogger, I want my heart back...

Wow.

2008-08-29T22:15:00.000-07:00

One.
Two.
Three.
Four.
Five.
Somtimes.
Seven.
At Work.
Nine.
Ten.
I.
Twelve
Thirteen.
Count.
Fifteen.
Sixteen.
Seventeen.
In My.
Eighteen.
Head
Nineteen.
Trying.
Twenty-One.
To Make.
Twenty-Three.
The Day.
Twenty-Five.
Go By.
Twenty-Seven.
Faster.
Twenty Nine.
Thirty.
Thirty-One.
It.
Thirty-Three.
Never.
Thirty-Five.
Works.
Thirty-Seven.

I think

2008-07-30T22:41:00.001-07:00

I've never been one for drugs and I doubt that I'll ever be. I'm certain I'll never become a drug addict. In fact I have no interest in drugs for myself. But for some reason, I think the reason I take such a great interest in you is because you are; you are an addict. Although it seems completely cruel, heartless and cold to say so, I have this need to study you. On and off your substance...I care about you sure, but my initial interest is your addiction...

I'm sorry

When I knew you...

2008-07-27T19:39:00.000-07:00

"I remember, when I knew you..." seems to dribble out of my mouth every time we speak. As if to say that I no longer know you. That currently, you are just a stranger, an acquaintance, someone to mumble a polite hello to while walking down the street. A passer-by as opposed to someone I've thought of all too frequently over the past year and a half. I feel as if I never really stopped knowing you. If it weren't for reminding myself I'd be convinced that the last year and a half didn't really happen. In fact, I'm sure it didn't, it was all just part of a very long bizarre dream. But I'm awake now, and I know you, and you know me. Neither of us forgot each other. Its like you took another call in the middle of our 2 AM conversation, but like everything does, the call ended. It felt like forever, I've missed you. I feel like we've just picked up where we left off.

"I can't take this I feel sick..."

2008-07-15T22:57:00.000-07:00

"Part of him is partly interest, definitely; I mean he has other things on his mind. thats the part that so unfair. I have nothing else on my mind. How come I have to be the one sitting around idolizing him in like microscopic detail and he gets to be the one with other things on his mind?"

I don't quite feel like this, but its close I think

So much for hanging out...

2008-07-15T01:44:00.000-07:00

I'm kind of really upset right now.

Postcard #11: JUly 11, 2008; 3:30 PM

2008-07-11T22:36:00.000-07:00

I think this postcard looks like your Mii character, Me and Sara found this awesome short cut on Grumble Volcano which allows you to run three laps in under a minute. After a video game high I gave Sara a hair cut. Its a horrible haircut. I believe you can see the results online. Joey's getting a house! that means I may have my room to myself again, maybe.

<3

Tina

Postcard #10: July 10, 2008; 2:16 PM

2008-07-11T22:30:00.000-07:00

This i my face on my day off, Of this I am sure. Last night I finished reading Fight Club. It was good but I had told myself I'd ration it as I have no money to get Invisible Monsters. I finished it in less than 48 hours. I really speeds by but this also means I've only had the book that long, so I'm going to return it and say I grabbed the wrong one and exchange it for Invisible Monsters. I think its an excellent plan. I'm really excited.

<3

Tina

He never really talks to me...

2008-07-10T02:25:00.000-07:00

...its really starting to hurt

Postcard #9: July 9, 2008; 9:49 AM

2008-07-09T21:37:00.000-07:00

Hey,

I kind of feel like crap today, not tremendous crap, more like you're average floating turd. So I thought this postcard was very well suited for such a day. Plus my face looks like that when I leave to work. The job is okay, but the people are so bland. most time i feel like they're robots; they have no personality. At other jobs I've had, work always felt like those awkward moments that fit together to make the most perfect indie film, you know, those moments when you're not sure if you laugh or not.

<3

Tina

Postcard #8: July 8, 2008; 12:08 AM

2008-07-09T21:30:00.000-07:00

So I've finished my book series by Orson Scott Card and have officially started my Palahniuk summer. I'm a little bit into fight club, I found PDFs of most of his other books, I'm excited. So far my favorite lines from the book are "This is your life and its ending one minute at a time" and "Out a gun to my head and paint the wall with my brains."

P.S.

Sara also likes the lines chose from the book

<3

Tina

Postcard #7: July 7, 2008; 1:42 AM

2008-07-07T01:50:00.000-07:00

It seems as though you are terrible bored with your summer. I cannot say that I do not feel the same. I think its only because I didn't leave home. After a year of school even a summer in OK seems more interesting. I have started plenty of little projects, though, to keep me entertained, one of which i think you should also do.

<3

Tina

Postcard #6: July 5, 2008; 2:40 PM

2008-07-05T19:57:00.000-07:00

To: Andrea and Matt

I fell yesterday in the kitchen, it was pretty funny, in the middle of the fall I had time to think to myself "Oh, this si going to hurt so bad." Forth of July was kind of lame, but the third was pretty good. Iplan on getting a pedicure today if i can get myself dressed and out of the door. OH! I've decided to make this my Chuck Palahniuk summer and read of of his books, you should do it too1

<3

Tina

Postcard #5: July 3, 2008; 3:43 PM

2008-07-03T16:32:00.000-07:00

To: Andrea and Matt

You nearly didn't get this one, I had lost all my postcards last second. Remember mean creek? Josh peck, the mean one that gets killed? He is in a new movie called The Wackness. I planned on making you watch it with me this summer. I still expect you to watch it and force Matt tow atch it as well. Hey Matt, why don't you race anymore? Its kind of lame. I bought Sara a Panda hat, Poop ate one of its eyes I'm making it a pirate eye patch.

<3

Tina

Postcard #4: July 2, 2008; 1:07 AM

2008-07-02T01:11:00.000-07:00

Your Mii character looks nothing like you. Are you excited for 4th of July? I am. I want to set fire to things, its been too long. Did you know that President Kennedy was the fastest random speaker in the world, with upwards of 350 words per minute? Now you do.

<3

Tina

P.S.
sometimes I sleep like this girl and I dream about eating meat. Just kidding -.-

A Real Life Instant Message

2008-07-02T00:14:00.000-07:00

Other Person: Can you think of a good movie that we can watch together? Something really good?
Other Person: that you've seen or haven't seen?

Me:: Hmm
Me: not at the moment
Me: Im quite devastated, FireFox3 broke my heart

Other Person: Did you say that you have never seen good will hunting?
Other Person: Whoa
Other Person:How?

Me: It was all like "I'm way better than Safari, look at my many applications;" and, I was like "Damn you're sexy" and now its all like "I'm obsessive and controlling so I'm going to distort all your favorite pages so that you can only pay attention to me"
Me: :(
Me: Damn him I knew it would end this way

Other Person: What a bastard.

The Summer of Chuck Palahniuk

2008-07-01T23:45:00.000-07:00

After a brief conversation with a friend of a friend, whom I've yet to meet and now has pink underwear, I decided that this summer will be the summer of Chuck Palahniuk. I plan on reading through all of his books in order of publication date. I will start when I actually have money to buy the book. Hopefully sooner than I expect.

Fight Club: 1996

Invisible Monsters: 1999

Survivor: 1999

Choke: 2001

Lullaby: 2002

Diary: 2003

Haunted: 2005

Rant: 2007

Snuff: 2008

Poastcard #3: June 30, 2008; 11:44 PM

2008-06-30T23:49:00.000-07:00

I messed up. I kind of didn't send one today, the 30th, because I was at work; but, I'm leaving this one to be sent tomorrow. The job is okay. I've come to the conclusion that teachers don't like teaching kids, they just like school supplies. Also, mom wants me to talk you out of getting dogs. What should I do for moms birthday?
Let me know your thoughts on the matter.

<3

Tina

P.S.

Matt, you smell; lets race.

Oh Yeah....

2008-06-30T23:26:00.000-07:00

I'm dying to get this rad Keytar and start a freakin' awesome band with Sara

Postcard #2: July 27, 2008; 3:41 AM

2008-06-27T03:49:00.000-07:00

To: Andrea + Matt

Poop ate a plastic fish; I guess its a good thing you didn't take her home with you.

Today Sara and I conducted a Mario Kart experiment. We sabotaged the race, going backwards and killing people. We notices, when we do this we get kicked off and deducted about 200 ranking points. It is way worth it though. F-U-N. You guys should try it.

<3

Tina

P.S.
Sara refuses to write anything on this postcard

Frakenbear

2008-06-26T23:26:00.000-07:00

Over the past few days Frankenbear had to endure countless hours of surgery. On the morning of June 25 we made a startling discovery. Frankenbear lay on the ground before my sisters bed, seemingly lifeless. We mourned his unexpected death, that is, before we saw a glint of life in his eyes. Despite massive loss of poly-fiber filling, he had fought to hold on to a thin thread of life. After I had tended to his wounds, Frakenbear began to confide in me what had taken place. He exclaimed that he had been sleeping soundly in my sisters arms when he felt ripping pain in his right ear. Everything was a blur, he said, all he could see around him was fluff and white. We later discovered the culprit to be none other than Poop. This was not the first time Poop had attacked; only hours before, Poop had mercilessly tortured a book into spilling its many secrets. We can only hope that both Frankenbear and the book are able to return to their normal daily lives and Poop to be captured and punished.

Ooooooooooooh

2008-06-26T23:21:00.000-07:00

I want them so badly
lip-bitingly bad

Internet Life

2008-06-26T20:51:00.000-07:00

My internet life is pathetically messy. So I've been cleaning it up this past hour. I've deleted nearly 2000 e-mails and I still have 7000 to sift through to make sure it isn't anything important that I need. I've also tried to tidy up my blog.

In the process of trying to clean up my internet life I decided to clean out my computer, however not really by choice. For about two weeks now my computer reminds me daily that I'm out of space. So I've managed to delete enough to come up with about 20 GB of space, this should last me maybe a month if I keep videos down to a minimum which I seem to be pretty good at. Especially as of lately. I am in desperate need of an external hard drive.
I want this one:

But I probably should get this one:

The red Iomega hard drive is so very sexy, I don't care if it has bad ratings. And the orange LaCie is so frumpy but very sturdy, has great ratings and has the potential to survive the Tinabeast.

I think that when I finally have the money I'll opt for the orange frumpy LaCie.

But alas I must continue to clean up my internet life so I can once again become productive.

(-∞, 333)

Tina

Wow

2008-06-26T19:45:00.000-07:00

I need to take better care of my blog, starting soon, maybe with the next post.

(-∞, 333)

Tina

Romantic Conversations With Tina Go Something Like This

2008-05-30T03:40:00.000-07:00

Boy: What're you thinking about?

Tina: large-scale farming in Brazil and its affects on poverty and land ownership...

Boy: oh

Tina: But before Brazil that I was thinking about you

Boy: Brazil is good too...

Tina: What're you thinking about?

Boy: You...

Demographics

2008-05-24T00:09:00.000-07:00

Total

Males

Females

I'm actually really happy with these demographics. I notice that there a lot of younger girls watching which is really interesting to me. I just hope that I'm kind of showing them good example of how to look stupid in front of a computer. Really though, i hope they get something out of my videos, something good, about themselves.

...

2008-05-22T22:28:00.000-07:00

You can't just kiss someone
in your favorite section of the library
and not like them

Its blasphemous

(-∞, 333)

Loves Geek Love (like)

2008-05-20T15:19:00.000-07:00

Nothing like a trip to the library to make your heart skip a beat

(-∞, 333)

I think...

2008-05-19T22:46:00.001-07:00

That I'm going to get my heart broken tomorrow.
I'll take my glue just incase I guess...

<3
Tina

Sometimes i feel like....

2008-05-18T22:03:00.000-07:00

grah!!!

Today totally sucked...
I had plans that fell through, and plans with this person have fallen through three times this week.
Part of me thinks that its not just falling through that someone has like a jackhammer and is breaking the floor that my plans stand on
It makes me really frustrated... Cause i feel like I'm over reacting but at the same time I think I should be allowed to overreact but I don't want to be seen as a crazy psycho girl...

I am so confused.
I hate that I over think absolutely everything!

(-∞, 333)
Tina

Help anyone?

I'm such an internet nerd

2008-05-18T00:51:00.000-07:00

Why me?!?

2008-05-14T13:52:00.000-07:00

bummer

2008-05-12T08:28:00.001-07:00

my crush is enlisting in the coast guard...

Eek!

2008-05-04T14:19:00.000-07:00

I have a crush?

So embarrassing...

Edit:

My heart is all like Boomp Boomp Boomp Boomp Boomp Boomp
really fast i think its going to burst out of my chest

Edit:

I think I may be crushed...I don't think it went well, there was tons of silence, which is weird considering his text messages continually went on:

"You've like kinda been on my mind all week, do you think you can please stop it?"

sigh...i dunno

Edit:

I things might not be as bad as i thought
Why must i always over analyze things?

(-∞, 333)

2008-05-02T12:09:00.000-07:00

For Claudiia,

2008-04-19T17:03:00.001-07:00

Here you go, the channels that are related to you :D heehee

HeeHee, I don't know where it comes from

2008-04-18T12:03:00.000-07:00

I honestly don't understand why my friend and I talk about the stupidest things, but we always manage to. Also I just realized i can take screen shots but to specified little areas of my screen which is why i have pictures of our conversations. heehee its amazing

For LemonFacee,

2008-04-18T11:50:00.000-07:00

Hey Rachel,

You wanted to know what you're showed when someone subscribed. I wanted to find out too heehee.

How awesome those are some good people to be suggested with.

<3

rawry

This Totally Made My Day!

2008-04-14T14:16:00.000-07:00

I couldn't believe what I saw when I subscribed to Billi's beta channel. It popped up these related channels and I cannot tell you how excited to see that I was put up there with Billi; smile face. This made me so happy. I don't know how Billi feels about this but I feel so freaking excited to have my screen shot near his picture. How do they know who is related? Who decides? Does anyone know?

Ummm, Your Lips are Really, Ummm, Yeah

2008-04-14T13:10:00.001-07:00

Yeah,

Up here are my buddies Tony, the one in the hat, and Angel, the one in his arms lol. I've known these guys since middle school, those were the good ole days. tony and I actually share last names even though we aren't related. So he often refers to me as his little sis.

Okay in the taller row we have: Alex, engaged to my friend Theresa, Tony, Chris, Ummm Your lips are really soft, Steven, the birthday boy and cousin of my best friend. Bottom, Angel, and Eddie, who is a new friend.

There were other pictures taken of the girls and all of us together but those were taken by someone else, I don't have them.

Friday night was much to hard to recreate, I would have needed a whole bunch of guys with Pomp hairdos and by standers to be sweating all around in a tiny basement and a few more people to spill beer all over my feet. I was wearing Open toed shoes

How was your weekend?

Bad Tina, Bad

2008-04-13T23:02:00.001-07:00

So I've basically have been leaving youtube to die, or at least my channel. I really can't explain, I mean I have about a handful of video ideas, a couple of which are somewhat mandatory but every time I plan to make one I get distracted by something 'better'. It makes me feel bad. I think it is because lately the videos I've been posting up I end up wanting to take down cause I feel that they're just steaming piles of poop left in Youtube park. They never end up how I want them to and its really frustrating because I'm constantly running out of time to do stuff, so if I fuck it up I have to wait a week to try again and by then there are other videos I should be making.

Sorry club kids, I forgot to make a video this week.

Sorry subscribers I forgot how to stand in front of my web cam and be entertaining.

Sorry friends that when I hang out with you I talk about how I feel guilty cause I'm spending time with you instead of making a video that I'd end up hating anyways.

Tina

Damn it!

2008-04-07T21:25:00.001-07:00

Dear Jon,

2008-03-22T22:44:00.000-07:00

Now every time i step out of the freezing cold parking-lot into my even colder car, I turn on the heater so that the vents blow at my face.

And as i lean forward to drench myself in warmth i have to remember the cold nights we shared in the car, debating which was the quickest way to get warm.

You were right. Vents to the face.

I bathe in the warmth until its so hot i can't breath, and then i blame you, turn off the heater and drive away.

You hurt me but i still wish all the best for you, your wife and your imaginary baby,

Tina

How I look and How I feel

2008-03-16T03:29:00.000-07:00

Okay,

so final are technically over. YAY! But i still have to be a stupid face and study other stuff. Why??? Because that is what I do. It really is. Anyways this isn't about that atleast not completely. This is about the fact that tonight instead of studying i actually made an effort to hang with the people i love and miss and haven't seen since high school.

Okay so at first i admit the thought racing through my head was "Ugh....I need to get new friends" I mean i felt like everything they were doing or wanted to do was so not me, drinking smoking whatnot. I'm not saying that i never drink, because i have, mostly with family cause thats how i feel comfortable. But it really got to me when they were like "drink some smoke some", just hooka nothing bad, grape i think, it just made me mad cause I mean I'm not like a fuddy duddy I'll do things but you have to let me do them on my own. Leave your drink lying around and I'll drink it and then ask for one but don't shove it at me. Had they not pushed the hooka at me so much i may actually have done it even if no one was watching. I think its because in my head i don't want them to think that they made me do it. I do things when I feel i want to do them.

But this, this isn't about this. This is about how great it was overall. I hung out with people i knew and people i didn't know and although i felt out of place at times i loved it I love people being around. I do. I love being by myself but being with people is good too. It was fun, I wanna do it again. I don't know if I'll get the chance to, but i would love to.

So how I look right now

How i feel right now

I Love it....

OH and one more thing, even though i hate smokers, i was surrounded by them, I love when my hair smells like smoke I think its because it makes me think of times when i wasn't alone. And that makes me happy.

March 3, 2008

2008-03-03T21:25:00.000-08:00

Ugh...

Okay.

I know that there are a lot of people out there that are really good at a certain thing; or, if they're lucky, talented or extremely hard working they are good at multiple things.

I feel like I am the former in this situation. I mean i think i used to be good at multiple things, but those just kind of ended. So exactly what am I good at?

School. I can learn like nobody I know.

Don't misunderstand me please.

I am in no way saying that I'm super smart or a genius, I'm just know how to learn really well, and I work hard.

That is also probably why I'm really competitive when it comes to assignments and tests and papers and scores overall. I hate not being the best at it because I feel in a way its who I am. I mean, its what I do, its the only thing i really put my all into and i can't be the best at it?

It makes me feel like maybe it really isn't my thing. Sure if you can learn it great but what use is it if you can contribute to the subject.

I mean, for a living, I want to contribute. What if i can't

I don't know.

I shouldn't even feel like this.

I should just feel happy for the person who got published instead of feeling jealous because it wasn't me. Next year I guess.

February 28, 2008

2008-02-28T23:22:00.000-08:00

Oh gosh could this week have been any more exhausting?

Hey I actually know the answer to this one, Yes!

Okay so yeah Im totally wiped out from this week and have develop an addiction to

caffeine mints
iced green tea (the highest count was 6 venti's in two days)
rambling off call numbers to librarians when i ask i need help and getting dirty looks in return

However, it is done it is over with at least until saturday afternoon when i have to start all over again in hope of making everything i completed this week even better.

But tomorrow night, is the night.

Tomorrow night, my friends, is when nothing mater except the vibrations under my shoes, the raspy throat earned from singing lyrics as loud as you can, the fuzzy hearing brought on by having too much fun too loudly, The bruised shoulders from having people trying to shove their way in front of you but then getting denied.

Tomorrow night, my friends, I will go to The Ready Aim Fire! Show.

It been nearly a year since i last went, and if you watch my videos you can see how excited i was after the fact.

I can't wait to go and let loose and then come home and ramble about it with my sister until 6 in the morning.

Expect a video Saturday afternoon

Take part in my happiness

February 20, 2008

2008-02-20T20:57:00.000-08:00

I have tons to do so i really shouldn't be blogging as it it a form of procrastination, but it sometimes helps me to figure out exactly what I need to do.

Im nearing the end of winter quarter so final are coming up.

I have to:

do homework (Econometrics/Labor Economics/International Economics/Communications)
Clean my data so that is actually useable (Econometrics/Labor Economics)
Analyze my data (Econometrics/Labor Economics)
Write a paper on my analysis (Econometrics/Labor Economics)
Prepare a presentation based on my analysis (Economics/Labor Economics)
Research my presentation topic for final project (Communications)
Start and finish Part III of my Economic analysis of Spain (International Economics)
Start teaching myself pre-calc (Calculus Readiness Test)

Of course this doesn't include my regular school stuff, like doing the readings and making notes before class. So . . . that will most likely, but hopefully not, be neglected until a week from now.

OH.

On a different note my new purse came in today.

It wasn't as good as I thought it would be material wise, but it'll do.

Plus, its way too cute not to keep